Okay, so i feel like i can just my raw feelings out on here and you guys will completely understand... My oldest child graduates from high school tommorrow, has a girlfriend i can't stand and has totally been ignoring me like i no longer exists... That is it in a nutshell... I have cried, talked to him, cried some more and nothing is making me feel any better. I want him to grow up, but i also want him to make good choices. I can only put my trust in the values i have given him and hope he uses them.
Tomorrow night will be a sad but joyful time as he leaves one period of his life and goes to another. I am so proud that he has accomplished this, as his other 3 "real" brothers (Patrick we adopted at 14 he is really our nephew, but really our son) did not graduate. I feel like me and my husband have made a difference, but i am having a really hard time letting go. Am i the only one? Because right now i feel like i am LOSING MY MIND... As i once said during labor with Lane "SOMEBODY HELP ME!"
I just want to go home, crawl into bed, and cover my head...
